She sat down at her desk thinking she might have an email or two to answer. Behind her he rattled around on the keys, she noticed that his typing had gotten faster and more accurate. She rarely heard the long pauses between key clicks as he hunted and pecked his way across the board.

He’d spent a lot of time online on the football message boards lately. She was tired of getting bypassed for the keyboard.

“I think I’m going to have to shut this thing down.” He said glancing over his shoulder.

Since she had been hinting all night that she had “needs” that she was absolutely desperate to have met, her hopes soared thinking he meant to shut things down and go upstairs.

“Oh, really?” She asked flirtatiously.

“Yeah. I think this thing is dragging and needs a reboot.”

She turned around and swallowed the last of the scotch in her glass, picked up the empty coffee mug from this morning and chucked it at the back of his head.

She missed, of course. But the split second the coffee mug shattered across his desk he jumped so hard he flipped ass over tea kettle out of his chair and she was fairly certain he might have lost all control of his bodily functions.

“Good night, sweetheart.” She said as she stooped down to kiss his forehead and made her way up the stairs.

She never knew why she did it, even if she knew where it began. Out came the bottle, the carefully selected shot glass and while she wished she could just drop a needle on a vinyl record and hear Solomon Burke singing “Cry to Me” she instead slipped in her headphones (couldn’t bring herself to call them ear buds) and fumbled clumsily with her mp3 player.

The first shot usually felt a little rough, but by the second or third she felt happy. Happy enough to tolerate him brushing by her, not taking a moment for something more than an absent-minded peck on the cheek. Happy enough not to feel the dull ache when he ignored her again.

Still she had hours before he came home and that wasn’t always a good thing. The songs played making her feel melancholy, alone, un-romanced, and unwanted. Still she tortured herself slowly with La Vie En Rose, More, and Come Fly with Me. And, she remembered what it was like to be wanted, desired, to tease, and to fall brilliantly.

Her song lists were sloppy and eccentric, John Mayer’s “Why Georgia” shattered her inner dialogue and she swam to the surface for a fresh breath before diving back into “Save The Last Dance For Me.” She succumbed to the lyrics and remembered the last time she was kissed breathlessly and someone worried about “losing” her.

She remembered the thrill of feeling excited and nervous. Now it always felt like affection was something she waited on him to instigate and she felt ashamed at how her heart fluttered whenever he did.

“Like a puppy starved for attention.” She mumbled under her breath and poured again.

Inwardly she scolded and chided herself. She was silly for needing him, silly for having “school girl” fantasies, and ridiculously silly for being irritated with him. After all, she worked from home, he worked both away and at home, she had no right to ask for more from him.

“What are you humming?” She asked, bleary eyed and slightly drunk.

“Crocodile Rock… Elton John.”

“Oh, that’s a good one.”

“Yeah, you know, back when Elton John was cool. Now he’s this pudgy, pasty, over-the-top gay guy who sings songs for Disney… you remember Faith Hill and Tim McGraw did a tour together, the Soul 2 Soul tour. Soul 2 Soul, that’s hot, that is steamy, that just screams chemistry.”

“Right… I’m trying to follow you.” She sighed and took another long sip.

“Right, well, Elton John and Billy Joel did a tour together but to make it perfectly clear, they had to call it “Face to Face.”

At first glance, it appeared to be a brandy snifter cradled in her hand as she tossed her hair back and laughed at the most bawdy jokes lobbed her direction. Upon a second look through the faint smoke around her, it became obvious that the delicious looking glass object was a water pipe. Hand-made and obviously expensive.

She made a crass reference to erotic asphyxiation and her eyes twinkled mischievously as the jaws around her dropped. She laughed and took a deep breath, inhaling the sweet smelling herbal smoke that hung in the air. Cigarettes were always kept outside, good cigars occasionally wandered through the house if the windows were open, but this smoke was always welcome.

She wasn’t the typical hostess. She dressed in a simple bohemian fashion that bordered on eccentric. Bright cotton poplin printed capri pants and a split-neck tunic that hung at the top of her thighs. A simple black tourmaline pendant hung from her neck on a braided hemp rope. Her jewelry was always simple, but she was never seen without her beloved wedding ring.

It was obvious she had seen thinner days and her breasts had clearly seen too many nights with crying babies. Still, she laughed loudly and occasionally winked at her husband who held court at the other end of the room. He, in turn, nodded and lifted his glass in her direction.

This was no magical evening, no air of mystery or romance hung in the room. It was simply a dinner with ordinary people, drinking, smoking, and laughing. The jokes were plenty and she would undoubtedly have to endure family members complaining about party-goers and their ridiculous comments tomorrow. But, tonight, she was just a person, chatting and laughing in the middle of her kitchen. The guilt could wait.

“Ok, I’m here.” He said strolling into the room and tossing his jacket on to the chair.

“So I’ve noticed.” She replied through teeth that were clenched around a pencil.

“Are you ready to do this valance thing?”

She misheard him as she shuffled through the bags around the ladder. She’d had valences waiting, unhung, for months.

“Valencing? Oh! Ha. Yes, it’ll be an Olympic sport next year. I’ve signed us up for the team, we’ll be head stud finders.”

Paul McCartney is captivating a magnificent and obviously adoring audience with a very lively and modern rendition of “Hey Jude” on the television. They stand, frozen, leaned against the counter, mesmerized by the tune and the message.

“It’s almost sad that he’s old enough to be the father of most of his band members.” She whispers shrewdly.

He snickers, pretends not to hear her and leans over further attempting to illustrate his conviction in being completely enraptured by the music coming from the television across the room.

“Really though, I don’t care how old he is, I’d still…”

“Oh my God. Shut up!” He said sharply, nearly sounding offended.

“Well, it’s not as bad as you made it sound the other day! Who were we talking about?”

The two of them had been driving back from having her car washed. They were chatting happily about politics and their mutual liberal interests.

“That Joe Biden is not a bad looking guy.” She said matter-of-factly.

“Yeah, he’s not bad looking, I guess. I mean not in that, “I’d *bleep* the hell out of that guy! Ooo yeah.”

“Oh my God! You didn’t just… oh dear. I just can’t talk to you at all. I mean, sure he’s attractive, but I don’t think I’d… I just can’t imagine talking about someone that way.”

“Thank goodness I used the word “bleep,” right?” He said slyly.

The strains of “Lady Madonna” whipped about the room. She looked at him wickedly.

“I’m just saying, given my chance with Sir Paul…”

“SHUT UP!” He said, clapping his hands over his ears.

“What? You are so naughty. I’m just saying he’d be tired the next day!”

“What is this?” He asked picking up a manila envelope from the old antique desk.

“It’s a bundle of white sage I ordered. We are going to bless the house.” She answered in a confident tone that nearly guaranteed his participation.

“Oh. Well…” He said, rubbing the back of his neck nervously. It was obvious he was very worried he’d likely be trapped in some sort of tribal ceremony. His only hope was that this time he’d be allowed to wear clothing. “Just don’t forget to bless your bong.”

“The problem is that we’ve had too much to drink.” He said, rather sloshily.

“And, too little to eat.” She said solemnly, swallowing the last of her martini and popping an olive into her mouth.

“I can fix that!” He hopped up narrowly avoiding a collision with the kitchen island.

“Sandwiches alright?” He voice was a little too high.

“Sure.” She answered, popping the top off of a fresh bottle of Stella Artois. The thought of standing to shake another martini made her stomach do nasty flip-flops.

There was much rustling in the kitchen, cupboard doors opening, the sound of the crisper drawer of the fridge slamming closed. He paced the kitchen looking entirely confused almost as if he didn’t know where he was or quite what he was doing.

“Uh…” He said, looking completely confused and barely standing.

“Yes?” She asked, watching him with an amused expression.

“Did you want anything other than bread on that?”

Swoosh came the muffled sound from between the couple at the next table.

“Well, that was just ridiculous!” the gentleman exhaled loudly.  “I think that burned my knuckle!”

The woman giggled. “You just know that we are going to strike that one day and it’s going to blow our eyebrows off!”

He laughed nervously. And, the lighter began to strike again, there was an audible inhale followed by a feminine exhale.

“You know,” she paused, seeming to recall something,”Oh, I bet that is the lighter those boys were messing with last 4th of July, trying to make a bomb or something! Now it shoots a 6 inch flame!”

“That’s like mom trying to use the gas barbecue that one summer, remember?” He asked.

“Yes, it took her weeks to grow her eyelashes back.”

“Poor dear, she just kept talking about the big blue flash. Never should have had her face over the grill.”

She laughed and began to strike the lighter again, flick, flick there came the swooosh sound again, it reminded one of the sound a blow torch makes. “Oh dear!” She said in a shocked tone.

He raised his eyebrows, “Oh see! You have got to turn that thing down!”